Turning your negative into a positive is literally in your own head. I truly in my heart of hearts believe this. We can look at things and think holy shit my life is screwed!!! Or we can look at things and think, ok if I look at this from a different perspective I can use it as a learning experience. I chose to learn rather than bitch.
Don’t get me wrong tough days are tough days. Days where things look rather bleak. I have em, we all have em. Then I look at my family. My kids, my sweet hubby and my bestie and think how dare I bitch about the cards I’ve been dealt. I got a lot to be thankful for.
The past couple of months have been incredibly painful for me. I was in bed a good majority of the time as well as shuffling around the house in my robe and signature cheetah slippers. I have several pairs, where I used to collect fancy high heels I now collect cheetah slippers. I may have a problem:) This is totally out of character for me. I’ve always been one to have my face on, hair done and dressed well. I even wrote a couple of my blogs in bed. I vaped my MMJ on really bad days leaving me sleepy and even more miserable because I wasn’t being very productive around the house. The one thing I was happy about was blogging and sharing different things in my life. It was a release, it was communication when I didn’t have the strength to talk or visit. For that I’m grateful
I kept a smile on my face for my family because I didn’t want to turn into a total miserable bitch . But to say it was hard would be an understatement. It was very hard, but I kept a positive frame of mind, thinking there is a reason for this. There is something I’m going to learn from this. The thing I learned was to slow down. It’s ok if I rest, it’s ok if I don’t feel up to going to play golf with the hubby. It’s ok if I don’t want to cook dinner. I’m human and deserve to rest when I need to. It’s ok to say I’m not up for company I’ll let you know when I’m up to it.
Keeping with the positive and my faith has saved my ass time and time again. If I didn’t I would surely fall into despair. I’m for the most part a glass is half full kind of girl.
I know some people say I’m real, I don’t sugar coat. I don’t either if someone is an asshole I’m the first one to say hey you know what? You’re being an asshole! Being real doesn’t mean you have to be miserable 24/7. You can be real and be happy in your life. You can be real and still tell the truth and shoot from the hip and have a positive outlook. Anyone that knows me knows I’ll say what I’m thinking. But I do choose to be positive rather than negative and miserable. It’s not fake it’s called survival instinct. Being positive gets me through the tough days. While some choose to say how “real’ they are and talk negative about their circumstance. I choose to be “real” and say yeah my life is rough but I’m thankful I have it. I’m thankful for my kids and hubby. Thankful for my old house. I’m just fucking thankful! Things could be so much worse!
In one of my groups I posed a challenge for people to post something positive or at least funny for 10 days. I was so happy when people participated. I think or at least I hope I brought something good to that group. If we can do something good in the world we’re still relevant. I may be sick and may not be able to work and do my part in the outside world any more but I can bring something positive through my writing.
I wound up having an awesome weekend, I had minimal pain. Thank God!!!! I played golf with the hubby and even got a birdy. My hubby was super happy and proud of me. I may not be able to play all the time but damn it felt good to get out there. Today is also a minimal pain day. I’m super grateful to have a couple of days with not so much pain. I don’t have completely pain free days, but some are still pretty damn good. It’s amazing how your body adjusts to pain. I always say I would think I had died if I woke up one day pain free. lol. So I’m going to rock this decent feeling I have. Spring is coming so the cold won’t be kicking my ass any more. woo hoo
I’m hoping to be able to get back in my yard and work with my pretties, but I’m not going to stress it. I’m going to rest when I need to and enjoy the good days and stay positive on the bad ones.