I woke today feeling kind of rough. Not cowbell rough, but still and all rough. Nauseas and spastic is never a good way to start the day, especially a Monday of all things. I get this on the regular but today is a bit more. The night before last I was up all night, so yesterday was a complete wash. I was dizzy most of the day and spent most of it on the couch. I never even got out of my Jammie’s, my hubby cooked etc. the only thing I really contributed was tending the pups in the morning so he could sleep in.
With MS, it’s a crap shoot. You never know from day to day what you’re going to get. So this was the hand I was given today. I’m of course going to get up shower (only because I feel gross and am probably starting to smell) and try to make the day something of worth. Since leaving work and not having much to do with my day, I feel it’s important to make every day count, regardless of not being a public servant any more. I’ve always felt this way, but now even more so. It’s important to stay a productive member of society.
You see,not having a job to go to can leave feelings of not adding something to this big bubble we all share. This was NOT going to be me! I WILL make my days count. I WILL bring something to the table!!! I’ve known others who have medically retired that have given up. Even on an ok day, they’re willing to let the day come and go without being present in the day. Don’t get me wrong, there are times I physically don’t have the wear with all to get up and get moving. But if I can, I damn sure will.
As you all know I’ve started a chronic illness, support group. This group is about bringing something positive or at least funny to every day. These are some great people that are of the same thinking as myself. Great minds think alike. I really get a lot out of that group. It has become one of several happy places for me. I love them and all of their different personalities. They’re positive and funny and have a zest for life, very much like my own.
Today as well as yesterday I had to dig deep to keep positive. Yesterday I had some great interactions, that brought me a lot of chuckles. One of the members posted a video of her singing. This lady while having a hell of a sense of humor, has a beautiful voice. That brightened my day and made me sing along with her video. That’s a good thing. If I can sing, I can get out of my own head and have fun. So I did. By the way this is a conscious effort to get outside if my head. You should all do it when feeling yuck.
When I woke up this morning I saw where one of the group members posted this. It was nice to wake up to it.
It was great to wake up and see a positive message as well as some eye candy. Thank you Lesley you’re a doll and don’t know how much I needed to see this positive message this morning.
So my hubby tended the pups. He let Daisy Mae out of her kennel to eat etc. she came bouncing into my room in true Daisy Mae form. I swear she reminds me of Kramer from Seinfeld. She comes running in all haphazardly with cast on leg, looking like a lunatic. Jeez I love her, she’s another of my go to, happy spots in my day.
This pup is a true hellion. Tall ,brown and crazy just like me. She truly gets me motivated every day and is a hell of a service dog, if all she ever does is keep me up and moving.
So back to my original thought, what do you bring to the table every day? This was all I could muster today, and that’s ok.
Today wasn’t a good MS day, but by golly I’m going to make it one that I brought something of worth to the table.
I’m going to shower, wash my hair, do my make up and try and get out of my head. It’s going to be a good day. I can feel it.
Positive things happen to positive people and all that jazz 😉
I’m going to attempt a little work out and get myself looking semi human. Wish me luck, I’m not at my best today 😏
I leave this saying, bring something to the table. Smile rather than frown. Tell someone you’re happy to see them rather than spreading doom and gloom,because it’s Monday and you’re pissed you have to go to work. I miss those days and you probably would too. We deal with enough doom and gloom just being sick. We don’t need to spread that shit around. Get outside your head and bring something positive to this Monday