As you guys know summer + MS can lead to fatigue. In the past I’ve done pretty good. I’ve rocked the beach in the past and still worked in my yard. Last year and this year not so much. I hadn’t blogged the way I’d like to and basically been a lump on a log for me most part.
I’ve been exhausted, hadn’t even really participated in my group very much. To say I’ve been a spent bitch would be an understatement. My DH has been helping me around the house because even vacuuming has been hard on me.
Vision, dizziness and fatigue have been more than I can wrap my head around. Does this piss me off? Very much so. I get very frustrated with my body failing me. Failure has never been an option for me.
I’m Alex mother effin Pierce-King and I will NOT succumb to the MS bullshit!!!!
I see people in my MS groups dealing with a boatload more than what I deal with. This is always a wake up call to be grateful for the things I CAN still do. I’m still blessed and still grateful that I woke this morning. It can all be overwhelming at times but if we look at the big picture and see this from another perspective we can find the good in any situation.
There’s a fella in my group sofaking sick and tired of MS who posted about how he was three years into MS. And while he wasn’t celebrating having MS he was adapting to the day to day changes that are unpredictable.
I agreed with his take on this sassy ass of a disease and it’s ever changing ways. While I’m not happy or celebrating having it, I am grateful for the person it has made me. I see most days as a gift.
This morning as draggy as I’ve been I pulled myself up by my bootstraps and got moving. I got into some work out clothes, called my son and requested he pick me up to go work out. My legs have been funky so I didn’t trust my driving.
In true David fashion he came and got me and we worked out. I was weak and tired but I did a little something. By the time we left my head was throbbing and David had to hold my hand to walk to the car. Even my cane didn’t make me feel secure walking. I was dizzy and unsteady and probably should have had my walker, but my boy held my hand and got me safely to the car.
Kind of crazy how the roles reverse. Needless to say I’m very grateful to have his and his brothers support when I need it. So while today wasn’t my best MS day it was better than yesterday.