As you all know things have been pretty crazy for this gal. I’ve blogged about some of the things going on during and after hurricane Michael kicked us in the teeth here in Panama City Florida.
Needless to say this whole thing has been a lesson in patience as well as giving it to God and trusting in him.
Yesterday I was stressed beyond belief, worrying about housing until the house is fixed or rebuilt. Things are still a bit up in the air because we haven’t received the structural engineers report.
The FEMA assistance runs out today. I’m trying to hold onto everything we can to replace furnishings etc. I had been scrambling all week trying to get answers from them about what I can do to move the process along. I am in no way lazy and will turn in whatever documentation they need. No answers had been given. I got a lot of “ma’am someone is working on your case and you should hear something within the next couple of days.”
So I feverishly prayed on it. Later in the day I got a call from the FEMA site coordinator saying he needs to meet us at the house today @ 2:00. You can bet money I’ll be there with bells on.
Fast forward to today. I woke up and my feet were completely numb. Usually it’s only a couple of toes and the side of my right foot. I waited and waited thinking maybe it had something to do with the way I had slept. I took a shower, not a hot shower just a warm shower and the numbness started spreading.
Oh joy MS the gift that keeps giving. If MS was a person I’d scream keep your bullshit and leave me be already!!!! Unfortunately my MS is MY problem and I have no one to yell at.
So I talked to my boys and tell them of my numbness one says ” maybe you can take a warm shower or a bath” To which I quickly explain that would be a bad thing for me to do right now as it may make things worse. He then says to lay down with my feet up. I guess he doesn’t realize how much I already lay down. If that would help I’d be fine a long time ago.
Talked to the other duckie that said well you have had it for soooo long, in other words be grateful. I AM very grateful to still be ambulatory, but that doesn’t make this feeling any less scary.
Surely I didn’t get through that hellish hurricane unscathed only to lose my mobility.
So my thoughts on all of this are I’m going to give it to God and hope and pray for the best. After all it’s all his will anyway and that I have to trust in.
I’ll end this with an interactive question. What do people say to you that drives you bonkers? I understand people try to help but sometimes…….
I apologize if I’m a bit cranky in this entry, just a bit over MS and all that comes with.