In today’s entry I’m going to go into a subject that we all need to address the older we get.
That subject is being comfortable with yourself, as well as the changes our bodies go through with age.
It’s it’s difficult enough going through multiple sclerosis for the past 15 yrs. God knows that has brought enough challenges. Going from fairly healthy to horribly sick at times over the years. Walking and running to walking with a walker or cane. Having RRMS to SPMS. The uncertainty of what tomorrow holds is daunting at best.
While doing my level best to keep MS at bay and enjoying every moment of my life, along with balancing the precarious moments MS can bring. #thestruggleisreal
I have lost a ton of muscle since progressing and my body changing with age. Don’t get me wrong, I can still hold my own and dress up pretty good, but to say things have shifted would be an understatement.
I’m ok with that. After all I’m 48 and don’t pretend for a minute to be any younger than I am. I’m proud of my age, I’m proud I’ve been able to make it this far. Not that MS is life threatening, but life in general is life threatening.
There are ups and downs and ins and outs. If we make it another year we should be proud we made it through. Every year should be a celebration of life. Not something we hide out of shame and not the celebration we do when someone passes. We should celebrate the here and now. Every year is an accomplishment, every year is a gift that some don’t get.
A couple of years ago I thought about going grey. I broached it to several people. My hairdresser being one of them, she said “ohhh noooo don’t do it. You’re too young looking to go grey. It will age you”. At the time I listened and decided to dye again.
I used to dye every 2-3 months. It was a pain, but I figured I should go with popular opinion. Now I need to do touch ups every month. That just seems like an epic waste of time and energy. I never went to my hairdresser for anything more than hair cuts. God knows anyone that reads this blog, knows I’m frugal, if I’m anything. So I dyed my own hair for years in hopes to look a certain way. To appease the naysayers.
Well ya know what? I’m 48! Chances are I’m not going to have dark brown almost black hair at this age. Who am I fooling? No one that’s who. That and the damage it’s doing to my hair is just a no go at this point. I see a lot of older women that color their hair, with the end result being damaged looking hair. It doesn’t matter how much you condition, hair changes as we age. It has to do with hormones etc.
I’ve said in my younger years that I’d never be that lady. Ya know the one that dyes their hair or dresses like a youngster. I always said I wanted to age gracefully. Well I’m at the point in my life that I’m ready for that gracefully aging part. I’m proud to be 48 and proud to have gotten the opportunity to get to this point. I’m confident at 48, probably more confident than I’ve ever been. I’m not worried what other people think. I like the person I’ve become. I may be sick and I may have bad MS days, but I still live a charmed life. My husband and kids and let’s not forget pups, all give me more love and affection than any one person should have.
No I’m not saying pull out your moo-moo’s ladies. I know I’m not. I’m just saying dress tastefully and age appropriate. 😉
I’m definitely NOT knocking women that dye their hair. If it makes you feel good that’s great. Just don’t come at me with grey shaming, that wouldn’t be a good go. You do you, and I’ll do me. After all we’re all different, and that’s a good thing. What a boring world it would be if we were all the same.
So I’m going grey and hopeful I can rock it, like I see so many others doing. Wish me luck. I’m about an inch there now and I’m excited. This is a new chapter in this crazy life of mine and I’m stoked.
My sweet hubby is encouraging me, telling me I’ll be a “silver fox”. This always gets a chuckle. He’s an awesome hubby and he always has my back. We drive each other bonkers at times, but damn, we’re a hell of a team♥️
So the hubby and I are slowly making progress with my general contractor and public adjuster and God willing we’ll have the house rebuilt soon. As grateful as I am we have the travel trailer, I know me, the hubby and my pups will all be happy to be in the house again.
Let’s keep it positive folks and happy Tuesday to you all.