So I head to my dentist a bit nervous, but hey you don’t know if you don’t try, right? I made it! I get out of the car and I have to pee because it’s still cold out. I rush into the dr’s office and feel a warm almost burning sensation on my legs. Did I piss myself?? I won’t say it’s never happened MS is a tricky bitch and likes to pull pranks. I have a hard time with releasing all my urine on occasion, I also get spasms of the urethra. I just hope I don’t ever get to the point I have to self catheter myself. But if it happens I’ll deal.
I stand at the reception window and look down. Can’t see anything, but I better make sure. I ask the receptionist if I could use the bathroom. She directs me down the hall, me looking down to see if there’s any evidence. I don’t see anything, but I better check. Luckily I didn’t have an accident. I can’t say this never happened to me in the past. It did. It’s happened at home on a couple of occasions, but not outside. This is another one of the things dr’s don’t readily tell you about. Like hey, you may be just walking around your house and get a sensation , that sensation will be urine running down you leg. Or as in my case yesterday, you may get a sensation and think you’re pissed yourself, when you hadn’t. There go those exposed nerves (MS) being a tricky bitch again.
This is one of the reasons I tell newbie MSer’s to do their research. Get knowledgeable and know what may happen, so you’re prepared. I also suggest that newbies be their own patient advocate. Don’t just swallow what a dr tells you. Question it and then question it again. I can’t tell you how reliable gut instinct is. I’ve saved my own ass time and time again, going with my gut. If it doesn’t feel right it probably isn’t what you should be doing.
Well my dental visit went well, I didn’t pee myself and I got an A+ for the care of my teeth. YAY!!! Go team pearly whites!
Later in the day I went to my neurologist appointment. Nothing new there, I still got MS and all that jazz. I have to admit it feels like a futile point to even go. He’s not going to tell me anything new like I’ve been cured etc. So why bother? Sorry I’m a bit negative about the whole process, it feels like a waste of time and money. Money I don’t have to waste to be told what I already know. I don’t want to sound like a smart Alex, but there have been only a few dr’s I’ve dealt with that know more about the disease than I do. After all I’m the one with it for almost 14 yrs. I constantly do my research and stay ahead of the ball. I always stay on top of the new DMD’s (disease modifying drugs) etc.
So there ya have it, my day was a success. Drove to and fro to my dental appointment without major incident. I’m proud! I know it doesn’t seem like much, but any and all accomplishments should be celebrated. My celebration ended with Pizza from my fave pizza joint.
This blog is intended to help people understand how MS can go. Not everyone will experience these things, so keep it positive and try not to worry if you’re newly diagnosed. I don’t share half of these things with anyone. Not family and not friends, so to them they just see me chipper and made up, looking like a G. They always say fake it till you make it. So here I am faking it. I keep it positive because if you don’t you’ll have a miserable life. Every day is a good day. The days that aren’t I alway’s say tomorrow is a new day filled with endless possibilities.
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